There are moments when we shrink our capacity, when we expand it, and when we completely seal ourselves off. In conversations with friends of late, I'm noticing that we're all continually revising our willingness to engage in different experiences in life based on our capacity: emotional, physical, spiritual, etc. The trap I fell into for a long time was not acknowledging that there were moments when I was full up and couldn't take on any more...and kept taking on more anyway.
I'm proud of us for questioning, for prioritizing, and for saying no when we can and should.
When we can be in spaces we can truly inhabit, and not lose ourselves in constant movement, we can fully see possibility...
And as this school year comes to a close, I realize that there are so many lessons I've learned that I wouldn't trade for anything in this world:
1. It's completely acceptable to let others know you need them.
2. It's more than acceptable to set boundaries for what you will and will not do.
3. Happiness is not something to feel guilty for.
4. The grass is never greener. We all stand on our own ground, and it is exactly right.
5. When you least expect it, bliss will hit you.
6. We all deserve these moments.
If someone had told me last year at this time that I would feel this light and completely aware of all of the abundance around me, I wouldn't have believed them. I also know that had I not processed the world and my own experiences as I did (though some of my reactions to circumstances leave me feeling sheepish), I would not be able to walk out as comfortably. Robert Frost's statement, "the best way out is always through" hits home just about now.
Lest I come across as all Pollyanna, I recognize that this is not a permanent state. But I was reminded by a lovely friend this evening, as I started to move forward into all I have to do soon, to simply bask for a moment in the completion of one task...and enjoy it for a moment. And I will.